TAKE A NAP! (I did that this afternoon–hubby and I chose a nap over date night–SERIOUSLY) I know it’ s been a few weeks since I’ve written. In all reality I’ve been SWAMPED. It’s been overwhelming to say the least. My kids are ready for spiring break and quite frankly SO AM I!
Since before Easter we have been moving at the speed of light!
I find myself in a really WEIRD place too.
I have all of this great and wonderful ministry stuff going on….
- A super cool writing project I’m working on
- Mentoring clients at our local Pregnancy center
- 4 amazing kids who stretch me beyond my abilities….
- A women’s ministry beyond anything I ever dreamed of taking off…and I get a front row seat
- a Growing thriving drama ministry
- Bible studies
- Titus 2 being lived out in my life as I mentor a teen in our church.
- and for the first time in a long time I can actually step away from the insanity that can be the life with an autistic child and find peace in Silence…silence with my hubby….OR Silence as I am hiding in my craft room typing this 🙂
God and I are taking a journey together this year like never before. I have learned about myself far more in the last 4 months that I think I have in my whole life.
I am an introvert as I have shared before but I am an introvert-Relater.
I can be with people…I like to be with people. I love to serve people. and yet I hit moments where I literally can’t pour out another drop. This last year held some pretty big AMAZING FIRSTS…and this coming year i know will hold the same. But as I move forward, I have realized a few things……
- The enemy doesn’t eat me to move forward.
- the enemy wants me to fail.
- FEAR has crept backing my life…..more on that FEAR in a later post.
- I’m my own worst enemy sometimes
- I have a whole lot of questions for God…some that may never be answered. and I am okay with that.
- I have some to realize the need to breathe and step away…..I need to practice this…and own it.
In those moments of solitude and silence I learn about God…and myself. and through these moments I have begun to relate to God in a whole new way. As I strive to soak up what it means to ABIDE in Christ, I become less overwhelmed and more aware of what Christ wants to do, both in me and through me. Is it easy? No! Can it be stressful? YES Bt I have to be willing to get off the merry-go -round before I dos my cookies! (LOL—Or lose my cool )
So as i sit here tonight in solitude and silence I pray that God will grant peace in the midst of all the amazing things God has for us. Peace that passes all understanding. AsThe fiery darts fly our way I pray that God will protect us, and work in us., Changing our hearts to look more like his. That we could still shine as servants even in the stressful times and remember to take moments of solitude and silence as Christ did. Because even the really neat things can be overwhelming.
